▲TWENTYTHREE▲

Hiiiiiiiii, it's time to update this space!

Been nursing a bad sunburn from Montigo which kinda affected my sleep for the past week, it was painful to even lie down or turn on my right side (which was more burnt than my left) & now that it's not painful anymore, it is so goddamn itchy!!!! I need all the willpower I can get to keep my hands off my shoulders, & keep Sherman's hands off peeling my dead & dry skin (he has a weird skin-peeling fetish) I do believe it's the first time in about 5 years I actually have a tan/obvious tan lines. But um overall I'm still not tanner, everyone says I'm still white... sobz

So... we even got to the point of YouTubing videos of people with sunburns. Hahahaha & this video totally mirrors my own stupid burn. Actually it's quite shiok to see one big piece of skin peeeeeeeling off just like that... 

Life has been pretty mundane lately, besides occasional meetups/dinners with some friends, I've just been lounging around at Sherman's cos he hasn't ended his exams yet! So I just go over & laze around on his sofa while he studies. Been trying to think of a couple of places to go to & explore after his exams officially end this Saturday but.. Singapore is so boring.
ANY IDEAS??? D: 

Also, I have quite a few questions in my ask.fm account but I'm really too lazy to filter them all & answer them in categories/group the same types of questions together so... I'll get to them soon??

 One question that was asked quite a bit (besides how I edit my Instagram photos -.-) was HOW DID I LOSE SO MUCH WEIGHT. So I guess since I don't have any photos cos I haven't really been going out I'll just address this topic now.

Here are some disgusting photos for comparison's sake. Omg looking at my old photos really makes me feel so WTF I WAS SO GROSS. But ok nvm shall just post them anw cos they're on my Facebook so technically I'm not really hiding these pix... *COVERSEYES*

2012 April

2013 July

2013 Sept

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 2012 Oct (OMFGGGGGG NOOOOOOO)

2013 Oct

I think I started getting comments that I lost weight more towards the end of last year.. beginning of this year. I'm not really sure when I actually started losing weight. But from the time I started noticing, I've lost a total of close to 7kg. I just wanna make it clear that even though this may sound damn fucked up & lame & probably no one will believe me, I didn't do a single thing to lose weight. I didn't stop eating, I didn't exercise, I didn't do anything on purpose to shed the weight. I've come to the conclusion that I lost weight because I stopped dancing.

This may sound very strange to you guys but I think I lost muscle mass. (which probably means I'm so full of fats now sobz) I have been dancing ever since I was 13. I did contemporary, hip-hop, street jazz & reggae. & I stopped dancing regularly ever since around the beginning to middle of 2012. There is no particular reason why I stopped dancing, I guess I just got lazy. Anyway that's not the point, one of the reasons why I think I was fatter while I was dancing besides having muscles was irregular meal times. I used to train till pretty late at night, around 9 or 10PM, & it would be a norm for the dancers to go for supper/late dinner after training. Not that I don't have supper any more now, but that was wayyyy too often. Some people also said it was because I used to work at Frolick & was surrounded by junk food every single day, but I don't really blame it on Frolick because I seldom ate yogurt & I HATE toppings (those who worked with me often would know)

So.... I really honestly don't know! Ever since I got together with Sherman we've also been eating a lot more, as compared to before where I wasn't really particular about my food or where I ate. Now we'll be like oh let's go eat this! Let's go try that. Which explains his weight gain heheheheheeee kidding I still love you baby. The only thing that's changed would be that I eat my meals at more regular timings since he's a normal boy & he gets hungry at 12PM for lunch & 6PM for dinner. Haha.

I have NOT exercised a single bit ever since I stopped dancing besides going jogging or hitting the gym like less than 5 times in the past 1.5 years. I only walk a lot whenever I go to Bangkok..... hahaha. Also, you may think I eat clean & stuff based on the food pics on my Instagram but in reality, I eat "clean meals" around 3-5 times a week or less, & not for the entire day, just for example like 3 weekdays' dinners or something like that, the rest of the days I eat normal food like sushi, ban mian, chicken rice etc. I think my appetite has grown smaller compared to the past though. Just to make it clear, I'm not boasting over the fact that I did nothing to lose weight. I just don't know how to answer people whenever they ask me to tell them my secret to weight loss. I think it's quite obvious that I lost muscles so I have some toning up to do... just that I'm too lazy now.

I am trying to lose a bit more weight now, would be happy with another 5kg. But I'm not exactly desperate to lose the weight & I don't mind losing it slowly over a period of time instead of suddenly losing it all in a few weeks. I posted on Instagram before that I attempted taking meal replacement shakes but I gave it up after a few days because I just felt so hungry & craved for food every single minute & second of the day. It was so torturous... but my mom did it & she lost quite a bit of weight. I guess it's all about the willpower!

Anyway, I won't be sharing what the meal replacement was about or the brand etc, because I really don't know if it will work for you guys, but if you really want to know then drop me an email at toxicityy_@hotmail.com with the subject title "Weight loss/meal replacement" (because most of my emails go to junk & I end up deleting whatever people email me ;( I'm so sorry)

I still have days when I feel absolutely disgusting & fat & every single thing I wear pisses me off. I guess it's a girl thing haha. I wouldn't call myself FAT, but I'm definitely nowhere near slim... So I always take "omg you're so skinny now!!" from people I haven't seen in quite awhile with a pinch of salt. I'm not skinny???? DAFUQ you guys blind?? But compared to the past, I did lose a lot of weight. I hope some of yall can share your weight loss tips with me cos I still wanna lose a bit more... I have zero willpower to eat clean totally & I hate running/jogging.... Help!! 
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Molten White Chocolate Matcha Lava Cake recipe

Attempted baking lava cake yesterday with Sher. First 2 tries failed, our cake was overcooked & thus no lava in the centre. T_T will share the recipe we used here but do note that we adjusted it according to our preferences/circumstances.

Ingredients:
1/2 small square of unsalted butter

1/2 pound white chocolate 

1/2 cup sugar (we skipped the sugar completely cos we felt the white chocolate was already too sweet)

3 eggs

3 tblspn all-purpose flour 

Green tea powder

Directions:

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit/175 degrees Celsius 

Butter 4 ramekins

Boil a pot of water

Put white chocolate & butter into a glass bowl, place it above the pot & melt both together, add green tea powder (amount up to you), whisk until smooth

Whisk eggs in another bowl

Transfer white choc/butter/green tea mixture into the bowl with eggs

Add the flour, whisk till smooth

Pour batter into ramekins, about 2/3 full

The recipe we found online advised us to bake for 20-25 mins but that was way too long & our cakes were overcooked. We attempted between 10-12 mins & that was the timing that gave us the perfect lava cake. 

▲TWENTYTWO▲

Went to Montigo resort in Batam, Indonesia over the weekend. The place was so amazing, really didn't feel like Batam at all! I've been to Batam with the Emixers but we stayed at Harris Hotel. This experience was really really different from Harris. So I'm doing a post on Montigo for those who've been asking how much we paid, what did we do etc. 

Batam is an hour behind Singapore, we departed from Singapore, Harbour Front Terminal at 930AM & arrived at Batam Centre at Batam time 930AM. We were picked up by a driver from Eska Wellness & went to Eska opposite Nagoya Hill Shopping Centre for our massage. 

I did the aroma therapy massage & a few of my friends did the hot stone massage. The aroma therapy massage is similar to the oil massage I do in Thailand, except it was a 100x more painful. I guess it's up to the masseuse you get cos the rest of my friends said it was quite shiok & not really painful. Lol I had bruises all over my body a few hours later?? Nearly died of pain. My friends who did the hot stone massage said it was really good. Prices were very reasonable, was between 22-27 SGD for 1.5 hours of massage depending on which you pick. 

After the massage, we crossed opposite to A&W for lunch. Waffles & curly fries were out of stock till next week, like whuuuuuuutttttt... 

after that we did grocery shopping at the supermarket. We bought lots of shit like chips, snacks, mixers, SHAMPOO, hair tonics, etc everything was v v v cheap!! The shampoo that I always use was around 2SGD (in S'pore its around 8SGD) our total bill was around 30-40SGD for all the nonsense we bought. 

Drove around 45mins to Montigo. Montigo is actually nearer Nongsa Ferry Terminal but we bought tickets round way for Batam Centre because it was nearer our massage place as we could only check in at 3PM. We booked the sea front villa for around 480SGD from agoda.com, max capacity of 4 per villa so we booked 2. Ferry tickets were $45 per person for round trip. 

Their service was v v good, they provided cold towels & iced tea for us to refresh ourselves while checking in, then came with a buggy to drive us to our villa.

It was a 3 story villa & the first floor had a toilet with shower, the living room with wii, an iPod dock, fridge, microwave etc & the private infinity pool

Second floor were the bedrooms! There was a master room with a king bed & another room with twin beds.

The last floor was a huge open area for chilling! 

We were all screaming when we entered the villa lolol & started snapping photos like crazy & asking each other to get out of the way & stop blocking the view HAHAHA. 

After we were done taking photos & facebooking & instagramming we all headed into the infinity pool for the rest of the evening hahaha we swam till our skin wrinkled up. 

We called cabs at the hotel front lobby & went for seafood dinner. We went to this place called Batu Besar. Initially we wanted to go to Golden Prawn but it was an hour's drive away & we didn't wanna take so much time to go for dinner. 

We ordered so much food it was cray. I can't really remember what we ordered?? Steamed flower crabs, chilli crab, salted egg crab, tom yum soup, lemon chicken, salted egg calamari, 2x steamed fish, gong gong, chilli clams, sweet potato leaves, kangkong, errrrrr?? Total bill was like 20SGD per person..... :OOOOOO 

Went back to the hotel after to watch some TV, was too full to play wii & we headed up to the rooftop w our alcohol & drinks to chill the rest of the night awayyyy~ brought our own portable speakers so we had music throughout too 

Went for breakfast the next day, their food was not bad & the outdoor restaurant was v v nice! The staff were all very attentive, I was telling Kaiyan that all the fans were switched off & it was very hot & one of them heard me & switched on the fan blowing towards us!! Hehee. Some of the staff also started to do the balloon art thing for kids having breakfast with their parents, damn cute. 

Our view while having breakfast!

Didn't feel so well after breakfast so stayed in our villa with Mel while she swam in our pool while the others went to the common pool. After 30 mins Amin came back & said we HAD TO go join them cos the view was amazing & I was feeling better so we changed & went to find the rest.

It's like a pool area + a bar with sunbeds & all.

After swimming for abit, had to check out & headed to Nagoya Hill again for lunch. Had Ayam Penyet Ria! They have outlets at FEP & Lucky Plaza so we were quite excited to try the authentic one. 

Look at the prices?!?!?! Like 1/4 of S'pore price. Lolol but the portion was also much smaller. I think SG's standard is around the same as the Indo one actually. Not much difference... after lunch Yanhan & Kaiyan went to go-kart while Mel & Jess went for another massage & I was so fucking sunburnt I think massaging would have killed me & rubbed my skin off so I went grocery shopping for more stuff with Junhao & Rag... bought some chilli sauce, seasoning for fries LOL & hair stuff again.. then cabbed to Batam Centre & came back to SG.

It was such an awesome trip & first time travelling with EVERYONE (with the exception of Safi & Ravi who're still in Aussie) although it was a short trip, it was sooooo amazing I really didn't wanna come back. Would recommend going for 3d2n so you've time to really enjoy & stuff, there're also seasports at Montigo but we didn't have time to explore it. Also, I only swam for 45min to an hour in the common pool but I got so burnt it's not even funny I'm totally suffering now so don't forget your sun block. 

LOBSTER FACE LOL

Till the next trip!! XX

▲TWENTYONE▲

I've been getting quite a number of questions on Instagram, from friends, on Ask.fm about the stuff I cook & recipes etc. so I thought I'd share a couple today. I never, ever cook at home. I only make & eat homecooked food over at Sherman's place, together with his sister, Shermaine. If it wasn't because of her, I wouldn't even bother with preparing our own food & would rather just eat out for convenience's sake. 

Sorry for the fact that I only have one picture of each dish we've made! I don't have a habit of taking many photos, even when I'm out with friends etc etc. I only take ONE good photo, which is Instagram-worthy (it then depends on my mood whether I do actually post the photo or not hahahah) I must also mention that I'm extremely impatient so Shermaine helps me take some of my photos hahaha I hate getting the lighting right, the angle, no shadows bla bla. 

♥  Mixed "Salad" ♥

This is obviously not a typical salad, but it's my version of a salad I guess? Hahaha, I'm not really a must eat clean must eat healthily kind of person, but for a period of time I TRIED. I hate raw veggies though.... so yup

1. Defrost chicken breast

2. Prepare & wash all veggies. In this bowl, I used broccoli, corn, snow peas, french beans, baby carrots, baby potatoes

3. Boil all veggies in a pot but don't over-boil them till they turn soft & mushy

4. Air-fry egg tofu

5. Season chicken breast with a teeny bit of salt & black pepper

6. Fry chicken breast & smoked sausages

7. Add in the veggies & add some salt to taste, black pepper & basil

♥  Egg/Veggie Cups ♥

This was Sher's idea! I must be really honest, I thought this was tasteless. Hahahaha she doesn't use much seasoning except pepper in her food & she's fine with it, but if you know me well you'd know I'm addicted to all things salty. D: whoooops. I'm just listing whatever we did, but it's up to you to add seasoning to suit your own taste buds.

1. Boil veggies. I used baby carrots, broccoli & corn

2. Beat 2 eggs in a bowl, add black pepper

3. Take a muffin tray & oil it a little with olive oil 

4. Put an equal amount of veggies in each section

5. Pour the egg into each section over the veggies

5. Place the entire tray in the oven

Tbh I have no idea what temp the oven was at or how long we put it in the oven for. We just randomly adjusted the temp & left it in but kept checking it to see if it was done? Don't over-bake though cos the eggs will end up a little dry.

♥ Veggie Stir-fry ♥

This was another of Sher's inventions! She made this once before & kept raving about it so we decided to make it together again. 

1. Wash/chop veggies. I used cabbage, baby potatoes & baby carrots. These are my favourite veggies, I don't quite like french beans or snow peas so we left them out

2. Lightly boil the carrots & potatoes so they won't be so hard when you fry them

3. Prepare chicken stock. We used this chicken stock she bought from NTUC which is a healthier alternative & has less MSG, sodium etc. I'm really not sure what's the brand or how it looks like but if you really want to know, just leave a question on Ask.fm. We just added one tblspn of chicken stock to some hot water & stirred

4. Chop some garlic & fry in pan

5. Add the veggies in & stir-fry

6. Add chicken stock & let it simmer

7. When the veggies are almost done, crack an egg over the entire thing in the centre

8. Garnish with smoked salmon, seaweed & black pepper

Okay I think 3 is more than enough for now. 

Which brings me to my next point: we are toying with the idea of selling the cutlery we use! Plating with cute/gorgeous utensils for eating & taking pics are a dream hehehe. I'm looking more towards ceramic/porcelain plates & bowls & she loves wooden boards, bowls, fork/spoon etc so... 

This would be an example of the stuff we hope to bring in! Do let us know if it's a good idea or not? ;-)

XOXO

▲TWENTY▲

Mandy & I had sleepovers at each other's houses the past couple of weeks (Probably cos we missed each other too much from those 6 days in Bangkok & all her weird antics which I should definitely not talk about here...) So when she was over at my place we decided to do a BFF tag vlog! Lol the quality is pretty bad cos I filmed it using my MacBook & I have no idea how to edit videos, was my first time using iMovie so the cutting & pasting is damn terrible. Heh

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The past 1.5 weeks have been fashion season in Singapore, was invited to FIDé Fashion Week by Willabelle so I brought Cindy, Shermaine, Mabel & Mandy along for the MCM show. Obviously, the highlight of the entire show was Rain's presence. In case you don't know who Rain is, he's a korean singer/actor & I googled his picture:

Yes, everyone went cray when he entered to take his seat for the show. Was expecting him to model or perform though... SAD. Also thought the show would take 30 mins tops but I think we spent almost 2 hours there! Anw I loved the Flower Boys in Paradise collection! Florals will never go out of trend. I know how some designs are so over the top no one in their right mind would ever think of wearing them out on a normal day, but was ten thumbs up. Especially loved the holographic shoes & casual sweaters. MCM is also now open at MBS... too bad for my bank account, I don't have to go to HK to get my MCM fix anymore ^_^

Okay my photos are so badly taken, I just couldn't multi-task while staring at the designs on the runway lol. The blurry first guy is actually some Korean actor (idk his name & I'm lazy to google it but he was very very hot hahahah) ok gonna grab some his pic off google - 

LOOK AT THAT JAW

Skipped the Surrender show on Saturday cos my legs were aching so badly from wearing heels the night before (YES I'm so weak cos I hardly wear heels) but..... heard the show was awesome. Mainly because G-Dragon was seated in the front row which actually..doesn't really affect me cos I'm not really a fan. Well but still! Should be heading for the Julien Fournié x Love Bonito show this Saturday. The one that I really regret not going for was Guo Pei. !!!! Just search the hashtag #fidefw on Instagram & you'll see all her designs.... :OOOOO ahhhmayzinggg. 

Okay abrupt ending, good9t hahahah

▲NINETEEN▲

Hihiiiiii. I'm here with the last part of the one month blog challenge~

24. The nicest thing you've ever done

I don't remember the NICEST thing, but I think I do alot of nice things.... hahahaha self praise. Like I love buying stuff for people that I think they would really like/really suit them. Hehe. Love getting little surprises for people. 

25. Something you're really excited for

Staying in my fav country for a month, my new line... 

26. Three pictures of yourself

27. Something you're worrying about

My future...... 

28. Two good things that happened recently

I went to Bangkok! Haha. & hmmmm... errrrr.... nothing?? Ooooo I got my Clot x Nike Air Max 1s!!! Lol 

29. Three things you want to change about yourself

Stop being lazy. Lose weight. Do something seriously drastic to my hair.

30. How you've changed this month

I don't think I've changed much at all tbh. Haha