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Last week, a friend asked me this question:

"If you could change any part of your face, what would it be?" 

For as long as I can remember, even when I was young, I've been hating my forehead. I have a very high forehead, which some people say means being very "smart & clever". 

Got this off Google: 

"A wide forehead expresses your cleverness and practicality - being someone capable of executing duty diligently."

When people tell me that I'm like ... whatever... high forehead is damn ugly?! Experimented with fringes in secondary school, am not gonna post any pictures here cos it's damn awful. Like seriously, bangs gone wrong?? Hahaha then in JC, I actually went to school with curry-puff fringe. Was it like the in thing then? I wanna kill myself everytime I look at old photos. Also had side fringe for quite awhile till I entered SMU.

Still remember that Mabel was the one who cut my bangs for me in her house toilet. & since then, I've been keeping bangs till recently.. started pinning up my fringe cos I got sick of maintaining my fringe & was too lazy to keep trimming my bangs every week or so by myself.

Up till now, people still make fun of my forehead, it doesn't really affect me, as in like I won't feel sad or go home & secretly cry to myself type. My friends have called me luo han, octopus, monk, don't know what else hahaha. But some of my other friends think my forehead is perfectly fine & normal & some even want a high forehead?? So I really don't know.. cos when I look in the mirror I think it looks ok but in some photos....OMG... save me from my fucking forehead. LOL. 

I recently told someone (can't remember who, was it my bf or mom) that I wanted to do plastic surgery to reduce the size of my forehead. Actually I have no idea how that works or is that even possible.. like stretch my hairline downwards? Or my face upwards?? Ok that sounds quite weird.. but I doubt I'll ever do it cos I have such a low tolerance for pain. Why can't my forehead just be a bit smaller.....sigh.

Idk if I've become plain lazy or what but I used to do eyelash extensions, for almost a year & a half, cos I have double eyelids but they fold inwards so it kinda looks like I have single eyelids most of the time. It really makes a big difference!! Just look below:

With eyelash extensions

& without eyelash extensions (actually, no makeup at all. Oh god I just realised my eyebags are terrible)

But in the past 6 months, I'm just like heck. Idgaf anymore, who's gonna see me?? Maybe it's cos I stopped schooling already so I don't have to go to town every single day & face like 100s of people. Idk? I also almost never use eyeliner or mascara anymore. Most of the time when I go clubbing I always pin up my fringe & just put basic makeup (no eye makeup at all) maybe cos I have a bf & I don't need to look good to attract guys anymore hahahahah kidding. I seriously don't know how I used to maintain my lash extensions all the time when now it's so damn shiok to rub my eyes & put a pillow over my face when I sleep. I used to be so kua zhang over my lashes, seriously, even when my bf tries to touch my face or kiss me, I'll automatically scold him like "oiiii my lashes!! Careful ley!" LOL wtf at myself really. 

Recently I was discussing about plastic surgery/fillers with a friend who's a blogger & got sponsored to do some fillers thingy... her chin is really so much sharper!!! My Thai friends also keep pointing out to me that having a sharp nose is v v v LIFE CHANGING hahaha like it really changes your whole look & I agree! Just makes your face look so much better. But I'm such a scardy-cat when it comes to pain... seriously... hate injections & all. 

But all in all, I think it's perfectly normal to wanna look better, especially for girls.. I don't see a problem at all with fillers, or some minor surgery, or lash extensions, or using makeup or even photoshop to try & make yourself look prettier. So I really don't get it when people say like "wah why your makeup so thick" or "eeeee she did plastic surgery or she surgically enhanced her face" please la, if the person is pretty then ok, good for her, what she did works for her. 

So if one day I muster up my courage, I think I wanna make my nose & face sharper heh heh heh. Don't think I'll be able to stand the pain of reducing my forehead or like cutting more obvious double eyelids. Probably just fillers/injections.. think I'll be satisfied with those :-)